wwoooo!

okay! lets see here. new post. ^-^ finally, right?

okay, Im back with Ryan. so youp. im happy i gots my baby back again. ^-^

ANYWAYSSSS heres an update i have failed to mention:
my hudini dog.... has... died. *cries* its been a while ago though. i still miss him. :( so thats a pit bull, a hudini dog, and an iguana all dead this year. ET SUCKS! 2009 sucks monkey butt. //.-'

okay. new favorite song: YOU'RE GOING DOWN by SICK PUPPIES! ^-^ oh yesh. ^-^

So how was everybody's christmas? mine completely sucked. //.-' didnt get a damn thing i wanted, but eh, at least i got something. *sighs sadly*
Im soooo unpopular here. gah... i am a loser. //_.\

Flamex: I KEEP MISSING PEOPLE! LIKE WTF?!?!?!?!? HOW DO I DO THAT?!?! anyways. miss you people on Flamex. <3

hm.... i have a hella lot of drawings. i must put pix on deviant art profile. ^-^ yet to do that....

ET SHALL BE OFFICIAL! IM A GEEK!
i found the sheet music for "Your Guardian Angel" by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus (really pretty and sweet song) for teh flute. i can play it good toooo! //-^\

so... i guess i'll be coming back on in 2 months. *laughs* bye peeps!
*disappears*

*yawns* too much... too much...

anyways.... Ozzy Jr is no longer my boyfriend.

tell me if you think i was right:
Okay, well he had an ex girlfriends picture on his phone.... as his background... while he was dating me. I asked him to change it, he said "if you dont like it, then maybe we shouldn't be together." so then i said "fine, its over." Do you think i was right? He wasnt over her, but neither am i when it comes to Ryan; but you dont see me having Ryan as my background on my phone while i was dating him. ugh. i feel so horrible. i was really starting to fall for him. *sighs* everything goes wrong somehow. *shrugs and drops my head*

Annnnyyyyywaaayyyyssss!!!! on a brighter note, drew 2 friends as a chibi. yup. so cute. whenever i get a picture of it i will post it on my blog. ^-^ also, since im apparently a geek, i found playing notes for Lugia's Song for the flute... so now i can play my flute and play Lugia's Song (from Pokemon XP). Laugh all you want, its a realllyyyy pretty song. ^-^


I sawededededed a video called "Potter Puppet Pals" on youtube. HAALLLAARIIIOUUUUSSS! xP

*yawns* nothing else.... i guess..... OH! i might have to go to Delaware this weekend... really dont want to go. :\ hmm..... if i have to go i wont have anyone to hang out with but my parents and my brothers gf. //.-'
Parents=NOT TEENAGERS AND BASICALLY OLD!
Brothers Girlfriend=I have to hear her enough at night (think about it,yes perverted)


thats all for now. ^-^ love you allll sooo muuccchhhhh. <3 byeeeeeeee.
-Forsaken

NEW ANIME ME AMSH WATCHING.... WELL FINISHED WATCHINGGGGG!!!!!! YAYYYY!

okay, well the name is... (bum bum bummmmmmm) VAMPIRE KNIGHT (both seasons, regular, and Guilty).
It is an AMMMAAAZZZZIIIINNNNGGGGG anime. i mean... wow... Zomg, theres so many twists and turns and turns out and clues. its like (i hate to sound like a freaking critic...) DN Angel... in how things are always going on in sort of a way you would never expect, and it REALLLY doesnt take long at allll for all the action to start. so i guess now i will switch to a new anime. which one do think i should watch? tell me in comments. here is some i already want to watch:
1. Wolfs Rain (yea, you'd probably pick this Dark Wolf)
2. Tokyo Mew Mew
3. any of your suggestions. ^-^


P.S- here are some i've already seeennnn:

1. Inuyasha (duh XP)
2. Naruto (again, duh)
3. Trinity Blood
4. Ergo Proxy
5. One Piece
4. Blood Plus
5. Full Metal Alchemist
5. Bleach (most at least)
6. Code Geass
7. Elfin Lied
8. Soul Eater (most)
9. DN Angel
10. Death Note (of course, who hasn't?)
11. Chibi Vampire (Karin)
12. Eureka 7
13. Fooly Cooly
14. Tenjou Tenge
Alot eh? ^-^ love you all for the suggestions. byeeeee. ^-^

HOLA PERSONAS!

wowww..... HEY EVERYBODY LONG TIME NO SEEEE! lol. anyways. a lot of crap has happened... seriously! XP

Marching Band: meh... same old same old. XP
Halloween: AMAZING! oh! happy LAATTEEE halloween. sorry so latee.
Drawings: better everytime. oh and Dark i still have to draw that pic u showed me.
Boyfriend: I have one that looks like Ozzy Osbourne so we shall call him Ozzy Jr. XP
Grades: meh... could be better.. but i have A's and B's this year.. amazing right?
Stories: started a new one, dont know how thats gonna go..
Music: love 3 Days Grace's new cd. amazzzinnnggg.
Friends: WITH A HELLA LOT OF PEOPLE!
My Twin: yup... i gots one. she doesnt look like me, but everything else. THE SAME!
Racheal: total buddeh. shes a "Yankee" yet she has a "Wedneck" (inside joke)boyfrand.
Flamex: i dont know, havent been on in a LONG while, nor talked to Dark. (*cries*)
Home Life: Dad lost his job. Hella lot of groceries. Mom's the only one that cares.
Obessive Disorder: hahahahaha dont have one! ^-^
Guys That like me: Total of hm... 5. I tink. XP its amazing how HS changes alot.
Drugs: NOT DOING THEM STILL! YES! *does a super hero pose* ^-^
Trophies for Marching Band: HELLA LOT!
Cell Phone: same as always.... GAY! xp
New Hated Teacher: THE GAY TERRORIST MR. VINNOD (aka Mr. K)
New Band Music?: THRILLER BABY! XP oh and 4 minutes by Justin T. & Madonna.
I-Pod?: lost it... officially... -.-'
MP3: answer is a big fat NOO! ^-^ i cant lose all my working music playersss!
Favorite Song As Of Right Now?: World So Cold by 3 Days Grace (Playlist. duhh)
Is this a hella long post... answer... YUP! ^-^
okay, time to say good-bye for about 2 months or so now. XP sawieee people. loves
ya! <3

SONGGGGGG! ^_^

okay, i definately have a LOT of favorite songs. ^_^ im such a wierdie. :D

heres a song i found on Youtube yesturday (i lovesh ettt):

band campeh

WOOT! went a WHOLE freaking week with the DRILL DOUCHBAG SARGENT guy named Allan. that gay mofo. *huffs unhappily*

i went Monday and Tuesday, skipped Wednesday, and went Thursday and Friday. I got burnt Monday then got even MORE burnt Tuesday so on Wednesday i skipped cause i could only lift my arms to infront of me. v-v" i actually had water blisters from have DOUBLE sunburn on my shoulders. it hurts like HELL! >.< but yesh, i made ett! ^_^ me and Alex (the other flute player, yesh i play teh flute ^_^) had to have DUCK TAPE BALLS TAPED UNDER OUR RIGHT ARM PIT! stupid Allan. we were gonna throw them at him at the end of the day if he didnt let us take them off before teh end of the day. ^_^ let him smell the stink and throw up and pass out. oh yesh! ^_^

New Post ^_^

okay, yesturday.... I had Band "Camp" *mumbles "more like band practice.."* okay, so it was freaking HOT outside... and there was absolutely NO air moving in the band room where we were.. WE THOUGHT WE WERE GONNA DIE! lol. we were there from 1-4pm. god, by the time we left we were sweaty, and some a little stinky, but still! we made it! ^_^ yayy us for not dying. now we know NOT to wear jeans to band practice. oh and not to mention she told us we're gonna have to RUN and DO push-ups next week.... I SUCK AT RUNNING! im sooo outta shape. v.v i seriously need to start running again, besides, soccer season is coming up (i'm not playing for Hunt, Dark Wolf) and i need to get my breathing, and running down pat. ^_^ so maybe this'll help me in my soccer also. ^_^ so Good Luck to meh! ^_^ *sighs* is there anything else...? ohs yeah! ^_^ my dad, yes, that dude, he gets mad at me when i give my "hudini" dog (also known as apolo but im calling him hudini dog up here) milk with his food. whats the harm? i mean COME ON! its JUST milk, and my dog eats all his food that way. ^_^ but my dads a bummer. v.v and hes very mean. oh and my brother insulted me like ALWAYS, so thats not new.... *sighs* i guess there is NOTHING else. v.v ol'well. *shrugs* bye peoples. ^_^ i'll write when something else happens. ^_^


with love and respect
-Forsaken

okay... woo! 2 days in a row with posting. >.<

new things:
my ex-best friend is now with my ex-boyfriend, and the funny thing is that before he started going with her, he said he JUST had friend feelings for her and didnt think they would EVER go out cause he didnt like her THAT way. wierd how things change so fast huh? XD well i hope their happy together. :] im cooling off on the dark wolf thing... so i guess its a bad thing cause she doesnt care anymore and wants me dead... hm... :\ (yup i read your blog Dark Wolf... dunno why) i guess thats basically everything..

well besides the fact i broke a plate today... my feaking clumbsiness. -.- *sighs* stupid self of mine and i have butter fingers. v.v

with love and respect <3
-Forsaken

ok! new post.... yipee! *sighs* well, im not talking to Dark Wolf anymore.... (reason: i fucking her her guts) muahahaha... she shall die! >.<

okay... so heres the LASTEST (!!!!!!!!!!!!!) thing:
meh had my LAST evolution/change! ^_^

heres what my (rpg) self looks like [in descrition.. still drawing the picture CX]:
okay. now i have the native american tan.. yes, tanned vampire.(wierd eh?) now i have markings sorrounding my eyes (which are now an ice/almost white blue) that resemble the cresent moon and stars; it looks like they grow saphire around my eyes because of my skin (^_^) now my hair is SUPER long... and white... except my bangs (bright blue) and the tips (black) i always have to keep it up and it STILL hangs. gah! now my face looks more cat like (yayy!) and my fangs have stayed the same.my ears have turned midnight black (what reason, idk) and now my wings are long and i can still control their color. and guess who was the person who saw all this happen! yes, it was Flamex's leader, Dark (hopefully still true. idk), how he got to see me, its because we were talking at the time of my "wonderful" change. it was wierd.. he kept staring after i finished changing... and to tell the truth i couldnt stop staring at myself either. it was like i was a perfect stranger to myself... thats why he was staring, he couldnt really reconize me i guess. :\ ol'well. now i look different. yipee. i have an exotic beauty. XD thats about it... besides the fact that im the happiest with my boyfriend. ^_^ hes so wonderful. im lucky to have him. ^_^

<3
-Forsaken

wow... alot of stuff has happened...

ok, first my best friend *cough ex best friend dark wolf, cough* is a bitch. she fell in love with my boyfriend, and it pisses me off. im sick of always being jealous of her. but now im not, and realized i shouldnt have been in the beginning. EVERY best friend knows "dont fall in love with you're best friends boyfriend, and you shouldnt even like him", but the sad thing is i knew it would happen. -.-* god, and my boyfriend takes her side. ugh. stupid bitch, i hate her now. gah!

on other words:
i got to see my boyfriend. ^_^ he smells INSANELY good, and hes sooo warm... it was FL but i was still cold. >.< well thts all for now. peace. ^_^

p.s-> i still hate u, u stupid bitch, racheal [dark wolf]

life sucks!

*sighs* yes, i am back. I've been in and out of a friendship with Dark Wolf. -.-*
i still dont completely trust her. -.-* unfortunately, neither do i trust myself or my boyfriend. Theres too much drama in my life. i tried to killed myself the other week. yup, slit my wrist. i was sick of the drama, sick of the pain, sick of all the hurt in my heart. im getting my hair cut again tomorrow. and my mothers getting some wash out dye. its gonna be black. all i does is dye my hair black and everytime i take a shower it will slowly wash out. ^-^ i cant wait. not to mention im going to see my brother and hopefully my boyfriend can come see me. ^-^ i love him alot. i always wanna be with him. hes so wonderful. after i cheated on him he still took me back. i was surprised, yet happy. :) he means the world to me, and i just needed to open my eyes and see. without him.. idk what i would do. i cant wait till i can hug and kiss him.... hes my world.




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ummm idk! XD

okay, i have OFFICIALLY found the awesomest song EVER! ^-^ it only took me FOREVER! hahahaha!

its called Shake It by Rediscover. I LOOVEEE IITTT! ^-^

Im listening to it right now. it keeps me happy and cheerful... which is AMAZING! lulz. ^-^ oh btw its my top song on my playlist. ^-^

another thing:
today we had the last of the 8th grade finals (EOGs) and for our electives the 8th grade was spilt for people to go outside or inside. my class went outside. so yayyy i actually got to get warm. they ALWAYS keep it freezing when it comes to the EOG days and EOC (for Algebra and Geometry classes). its so annoying. it was funny though, right before we went back to class i hugged my friend Ryan and he NEVER lets ANYBODY hug him. i surprised him today tho. >.< and while we were outside i was huggin my friend Trainwreck from behind and had my head resting on his should and my friend goes "are you two going out" and we were like "NO!" hahahahah that girl is retarded. i guess she hasnt seen Trainwrecks boyfriend. >.<

its official i sleep TOO much! XD

love you peeps! ^-^
-Forsaken

IM NOT DEAD! XD

ok, Dark Wolf thought I had killed myself over this past weekend. XD and she keeps nagging me to post so people dont think I have died. so yea... Dark Wolf heres another post. XD if more people would start following me I would post more. makes sense, huh? XD well until later today (cause I have to get ready for school and fix my hair to the scene way) buh-bye. ^^

<3
-Forsaken

BLOWING SESSION TIME! ^^

Okay.. time for a new post. I'm sorry every three people who fallow my blog. L0L, but i get very busy and yeah... >.> I really should post more. I know I should...

Okay, the most painful lastest thing:
I messed up my knee... Or shall I say, my dads dog did. It hurts. I knew I shouldn't have tried to feed that stupid (sorry I'm still mad at the dog, please don't judge me in my time of anger) dog when it was dark outside. I screamed "mofo" out loud and nobody heard me. So... I'm VERY surprised I didn't get in trouble and then I fell miserably to the ground screaming in pain and crying... I know pathetic right, but then I screamed as loud as I can and nobody heard me! Like they were DEAF! I mean come on! Dark Wolf know's how loud I scream and it is LOUD!

Okay, on to another thing now? I think so. ^^
So... Hmm... Oh yeah! I have finally figured out a way to draw GOOD wings and wolves too! ^^ All thanks to Dark Wolf, even though I took some of the way she drew things and made them my own... -.-' I hope she doesn't get mad at me for that.. >.> (please don't Dark Wolf!)

I really should find better things to talk about when I post things.... >.>

Okay, so here's my new song of the week:
Sick Of It by Evans Blue (freakin' awesome song!)

I just found out today that my dad's getting laid off of his job... but at least he has a back up one. thankfully. -.-' I was already poor enough. I mean gosh, I only get new things (like clothes) when I need them or its x-mas time; and I SERIOUSLY need some new cothes now, but I don't want to ask for them... as of our current situation... -sigh- We can hopefully make it. My dad was talking about a job he could take but we would have to move to Atlanta... which I would love to do, then I would be closer to my brother and boyfriend (^^), and my basically 2nd mother. She freakin' rules too.^^

okay, one more thing (I think) for my blowing off steam session up here:
there's some girls on my bus, yes my bus I'm only 14, so I can't really help my situation there either; but like I was saying: their always yelling and smacking and getting on my nerves. It's wierd though, whenever ones gone they dont smack nor talk. Which I can say the same for me and Dark Wolf but then again we text message each other back and forth instead of talking to each other when we're right beside each other. funny, huh? L0L! ^^ Also there's other girls in my grade, they think they can push me and boss me around but when push comes to shove their going to get their lights knocked out of them. Even if they try to pull my hair I really don't care; I can pull hair too but at the same time of punching them in the face. I don't fight with slaps and pulling hair and crap. It's funnier when I'm angry cause I get quicker and harder to hit. You would never think a girl my size would be able to fight the way I do, even though I'm like a hippie and rather keep the peace; but once somebody pushes my temper to its very last string its over with and I blow.

okay so now my blowing session is over. ^^ I feel kind of better. =) Love all my fallowers! Ya'll freakin' rule! ^^ I need some more tho... >.>


-Forsaken (aka: Abandoned)

P.S- I'm goin' to try and get better pictures of my drawings so ya'll can see them and hopefully comment on them without trouble. peace. =D

DRAWING! MINE TO BE EXACT! X3

hey all comment please. i need all the comments i can get. i know its been a while since i've posted. oh! and btw my song of the week is: goodbye(im sorry) by And Then I Turned Seven.

ok, ive been looking lately for a picture that is semi-like me...and the only thing i come up with is either just the wings or just the cat ears and tail..... and i never get the hair right. ugh! its frustrating. i think i might have to draw myself. woo! i suck at drawing..... or at least i think i do^^ Dark Wolf has a slightly different opinion..... which i totally disagree with her! shes sooo much better than me.... i completely SUCK! i dont even know why i try....

something else.....

ok, my friend BJ [a.k.a. blow-job XD] is pratically GAY or shall i say hes a gaywod! lulz. hes not my friend. just somebody who annoys the living crap outta me.... but anyways.... even though he has a girlfriend [aka a cover-up] he wont admit hes gay.... which he TOTALLY is! he walks, talks, sits, thinks like a gay person [no offense to lesbians or gays or Bi peoples] but yea.... we think hes just to scared to come out of the closet. XD hes soooo totally retarded..... and obnoctious and he GLOUTS like crazy about his drawing skills.... freaking glouter.... he needs to get himself a life.... and so do i but... yea... im an acception. ^^ yayy.... lulz

ok... last night [saturday Jan. 30th, 2009] i tried the "Angry" Whopper. it was sooooo good and hot.. but it wasnt because of the "angry" onions. they just make your breath smell bad. lulz. but anyways.... i would totally eat it again! it was sooooooooo good!!!!! ^^ cant wait to eat it again.... :D


on another subject.....
my friend [i found out a couple weeks ago and was mad at him for not tellin me] is bi. yes, i mean bisexual. hes my buddy tho. so its ok. ^^ we kinda make fun of him but its playful and hes ok with it... we're not meaning to hurt him. so hes fine with it. soo yayyyy Trainwreak! XD his b/fs name sounds like his name... and they kinda look a like. how ironic right? lulz. but anyways... i will talk to you all later.......

-xXForsakenXx

im happy! ^^ its surprising even ME! XD

Okay, it all starts in... my computer class. It was fun, I got a "glowie" stick (aka a glow stick). It glows purple MY FAVORITE COLOR! Lmao. Thats when my day started getting good... Then just a couple minutes ago the guy I've been waitin to talk to me finally messaged me back on myspace! ^^ He's the guy that i had that drem about... for the last couple of months... :/ I'm soo happy now! This day is the best day I've had in a WHILE!